Billie’s Blog: The Honor of Your Presence

Billie Wade on December 15, 2025

“The most precious gift we can offer anyone is our Presence.” Thich Nhat Hanh

Have you ever agonized over what to give someone as a gift? Are you puzzled when someone asks what you want for a gift? How about giving them a hand-written “gift card” for your Presence to be “cashed” whenever the recipient feels the need. Or a card requesting the honor of their Presence for you? Presence is the state of being in which one devotes full time and attention to the needs—usually emotional or spiritual—of another.

Presence has been called a human superpower, and with good reason. Offering someone the dignity and respect of Presence may transform the lives of everyone involved. We think of “being there” when a loved one or a friend is hurting. Other forms of Presence are just as vital to our relationships. Attending the concert of a friend as a surprise. Mentoring someone as they master new skills and self-confidence. You may see the person’s eyes light up or their face brighten.

To be Present with someone is to first commit to creating a space where distractions can be held to a minimum. Lean into what they are saying or doing to hear the meaning beneath the words they speak. Pay attention to their body language, their vocal inflection, and their facial expressions. No checking or answering the cell phone. No watching television or the jumbotron at the bar. No doing chores or paying bills. Stay engaged by asking meaningful open-ended questions in a nonjudgmental tone and offering feedback when requested, when you need clarification, to summarize what the person said, or with permission. Gentle nodding or shaking your head lets the person know you are listening.

Some distractions are internal. The person may share some information that triggers memories of your own experience you want to let them know about (The “That happened to me, too.” Or “What happened to me was worse.” Or “I know how you feel.”). You may deal with some disconcerting news of your own, or you may be unsure where the person is going with the story, so you are concerned about your ability to be useful in the situation. Mental health disorders such as anxiety or depression, or life stressors also can affect your ability to focus. If your distractions are intense or severe, you may need to ask the person if the conversation can wait until you are feeling more able to be fully Present with them.

When you are fully present, the recipient is treated with the respect and dignity their situation deserves. When someone gives of their Presence, they exude authenticity, which helps the recipient to relax and to entrust their story. They trust they will be listened to, really heard, without judgment and with full confidentiality. You are allowed a vision into a tender part of the person’s life. You have the privilege of seeing the light within the other person through their eyes, voice, and body.

Set parameters and boundaries in advance, if possible, to avoid misunderstandings. Know your capacity for someone else’s hard conversations. Protect your personal and intimate boundaries with gentleness and self-compassion. Your Presence requires you to mostly listen.

Presence brings myriad interpersonal benefits. Relationships improve with your ever-increasing listening and communication skills. You develop and hone feelings of empathy and compassion for others. Presence helps create in you a sense of humility as you come to understand the plight of others.

There is more to Presence than interpersonal relationships. Presence slows you from the frenetic busyness of your days, especially during the winter holidays. Pay attention to what goes on around you. The people you encounter throughout your day, each with their own thoughts and cares. Let in a car when there is a line behind you. Do the same for someone in line at the office supply store. Leave home ten minutes early and try driving the posted speed limits and see how you feel.

Listen and watch for sounds and sights missed in haste. A cardinal perched on a snow-covered branch. A dad cooing to his baby in a carrier while in line at the grocery store. Notice signs of life everywhere around you. Be Present with life and all it offers. While anything but passive, Presence is not a verb, but a state of being in the world, a way of life, a lifestyle. Spend time in solitude, time to go within and give yourself the gift of your Presence.

Be Present with the important people in your life. Ask your loved ones how their day unfolded, how a challenge turned out for them, or what happened with a certain situation. Likewise, praise them for navigating a tough circumstance, even if it turned out differently from what they planned or hoped.

William Stafford framed the essence of Presence well when he wrote, “Will you ever bring a better gift for the world than the breathing respect that you carry wherever you go right now?”

Let us broaden our desires for the winter holidays and beyond. Employ the power of Presence in every aspect of your life to enhance and deepen all your relationships—personal, professional, and social; and remember your relationship with yourself. Presence is a precious and powerful gift, one that will stay with people for years to come, especially when delivered with a hand-written “gift card.” Or, when someone requests the honor of your Presence.

Billie Wade, guest blog writer for Mind & Spirit Counseling Center

Billie Wade is a gregarious introvert whose primary interests are writing, lifelong learning, personal development, and how we all are affected by life’s vagaries.

Issues facing Black people, women, the LGBTQ community, and aging adults are of particular concern to her. She enjoys open-hearted dialogue with diverse people. The opinions expressed here are her own.

Billie’s Blog: 20 Ways to Ease Loneliness

Billie Wade on November 17, 2025

Living alone can lead to feelings of freedom and independence or trigger feelings of loneliness and isolation. While aloneness and loneliness are often used interchangeably, and often travel together, they are different.

Billie’s Blog: A World of Social Acceptance

Billie Wade on September 19, 2025

Social acceptance is open, trusting, deep, and positive regard for others. We recognize everyone’s right to a life of dignity, regardless of skin color and other demographic markers. We learn how the sharing of resources, whether financial, creative, or intellectual, enhances life for everyone, as all receive equal opportunities for expression and participation. Social acceptance tells us to honor the desires of all people to live as fully as possible.

Acceptance does not equal agreement. I may disagree with someone while accepting the person for who she or he is. I have a close friend whose political views differ from mine. When we tackle issues, recognizing that many are volatile, we do so without political rhetoric. We discuss the issue at hand without accusations and finger-pointing. Acceptance doesn’t aim to discount who we are, but to honor everyone as equal, viable, and valuable.

I attended graduate school with a delightful woman who used a wheelchair and who had several obvious physical disabilities. Despite her cheerful disposition, some classmates avoided her or ignored her, which was ironic and unfortunate as the program prepared us to work with people who have disabilities. Students who engaged with her from the outset served as powerful peer examples of what was possible. They showed curiosity, openness, and compassion, which opened a door through which the rest of the class could venture. By the end of the semester, most classmates had grown to accept her intelligence and her contagious, effervescent attitude. The process took time and repeated exposure to her. The overall environment of the class supported the healthy formation of relationships for all students. Interaction and relationships change people’s minds.

Many white people fear that acceptance of minorities threatens what they see as a delicate and precarious status quo of privilege and power. That is far from the intention of acceptance. Social acceptance levels the field of opportunity for everyone. Black people and other marginalized people then have equal chances to reap the benefits that white people take for granted in a thriving society. We are no longer bystanders watching a world that profits from us but denies us access to the rewards that come with privilege. Promoting the welfare of disadvantaged people promotes the welfare of privileged people as well. Privilege under our Constitution is a right intended for everyone. There are more than enough resources for all.

Acceptance is a choice that one arrives at through introspection. It is an opportunity to ask: How can I look at this differently? White people have the responsibility to look at the subtleties and nuances of policies and practices and ask tough questions: (1) Am I exempt from this ruling because I am white?; (2) How does this policy affect Black people and other people of color?; (3) If I build a highway or mall through this neighborhood and displace the residents, how will it affect the existing community and how will that affect me?; (4) Are my decisions humane?; (5) How would I feel if I or a loved one were subjected to this?

White people must begin with admitting the pain and damage their privilege and power have brought into the lives of non-white citizens. They can look honestly at their environment and the world they have created and acknowledge the innumerable privileges they enjoy solely because of the color of their skin and how other people are denied those privileges. They can look at hurtful systemic factors such as the construction of roads through Black neighborhoods, the building of exclusive communities, and the allotment of services. Whenever white people receive a privilege because of the color of their skin, people of color receive an injustice. The challenge is to bring the inequities of white privilege to the attention of white people who care, so they are not blind to it and then, hopefully, have enough empathy to make changes. Transformation begins with white people reaching out to Black people and other people of color with sincerity, honestly and openly admitting the inequities, and offering actual solutions.

While the fundamental change is largely the responsibility of white people, non-white people also have a challenge. We must continue to tell our stories in the news, books, magazines, and on social media. We must continue to speak out about injustices and be willing to risk hearing innumerable times that we are overreacting, that times have changed, or that we need to stop whining. Improving race relations is everyone’s job.

We all have a role to play in the furthering of freedom, inclusion, and equality for all people. We can:

  • investigate our fears and prejudices.
  • ask ourselves whether our opinions and beliefs are in line with our values.
  • take classes and workshops that aim to help us transform our opinions and beliefs about others.
  • read books that address issues of race relations and white privilege.
  • approach people different from us with an attitude of curiosity and genuine interest.

We are all challenged to look beyond gender, age, disability, and the people who don’t fit our definition of valuable and viable. Change begins on the ground with honesty and sharing, rippling out from one person to another. We must all be willing to be vulnerable and receptive by having the courage to seek people different from us and build relationships.

Previously published on Escape Into Life:

Life’s Matters: A World of Social Acceptance

June 25, 2018

Billie Wade, guest blog writer for Mind & Spirit Counseling Center

Billie Wade is a gregarious introvert whose primary interests are writing, lifelong learning, personal development, and how we all are affected by life’s vagaries.

Issues facing Black people, women, the LGBTQ community, and aging adults are of particular concern to her. She enjoys open-hearted dialogue with diverse people. The opinions expressed here are her own.

Billie’s Blog: Independent or Emancipated?

Billie Wade on July 11, 2025

Fifteen days separate June 19th from July 4th on the calendar. The significant events of these two dates, July 4, 1776, and June 19, 1865, took place eighty-eight years, eleven months, and fifteen days apart. July 4th was hailed as Independence Day. June 19th was dubbed Emancipation Day, also known as Juneteenth. The two terms are separate, and they are not equal. On Independence Day, the United States of America extricated itself from the rule of Great Britain and became a sovereignty in its own right. All thirteen colonies signed the Declaration of Independence. Conversely, the Emancipation Proclamation was an Executive Order signed by President Abraham Lincoln. The document freed only those slaves held in Union states, making those men eligible to fight in the Civil War. The Proclamation, delivered to Galveston, Texas, over two and a half years after its signing on January 1, 1863, was as much a war and political strategy rather than a strategy for slave freedom.

While the two documents functioned differently, there were similarities in form: The signers of both were wealthy white men who owned land, livestock, crops, and people whom they regarded as chattel property, livestock, and currency. The Emancipation Proclamation did not consider any input from the enslaved people the document stated it freed. According to Public Broadcasting System (PBS): The Emancipation Proclamation did not free all slaves in the United States. Rather, it declared free only those slaves living in states not under Union control. William Seward, Lincoln’s secretary of state, commented, “We show our sympathy with slavery by emancipating slaves where we cannot reach them and holding them in bondage where we can set them free.” Lincoln was fully aware of the irony, but he did not want to antagonize the slave states loyal to the Union by setting their slaves free.

The proclamation allowed black soldiers to fight for the Union — soldiers that were desperately needed. It also tied the issue of slavery directly to the war.

The Declaration of Independence does not seem to be a declaration of absolute freedom, just freedom from chattel slavery. Enslaved men were released by their holders without financial resources, property, formal education, or vocational training. Then, they were trained in the violence of warfare, Abraham Lincoln’s warfare. We have no immediate information about the freedwomen and children, some of whom had formed family units with the men. Once again, Black families were torn asunder in the name of the whims of wealthy white men. Also, while disentangling Black people from the horrors of slavery, the Emancipation Proclamation fanned the flames of anger, hatred, and fear of white people, especially those who were forced to release their slaves.

Two-hundred-forty-nine-years after the signing of the Declaration of Independence, the United States of America remains a sovereign country. One-hundred-sixty-years after the signing of the Emancipation Proclamation, African American Descendents of Slaves still are not free. You see, emancipation does not follow a natural trajectory to independence, then to freedom. America is free to decide in the country’s best interests. Black people do not have, and have never had, that freedom. Everything about our lives is dictated to us—where we live, where we worship, what jobs we hold, what our income should be, the education we receive, etc.

July 4th is rightfully celebrated as a day of joy. People hold parades, wave flags, host neighborhood picnics, and shoot firework displays. June 19th, also known as Juneteenth, is an equally rightful day of celebration. The holiday is a day of remembrance of the experiences and sacrifices of our forebears, and our resilience, and our tenacity as a people to never let go of the dream of possibility in our hearts, despite daunting obstacles that remain in our paths, and new ones that pop up daily.

Freedom is not a one-day, one-time proposition. You cannot make a bowl of potato salad and be done until next year. What are you doing every day to nurture your freedom and the freedom of others? Do you fear the freedom of others will harm your freedom or the freedom of people you love? What are your fears about what will happen if someone different from you moves into your neighborhood or joins your family or religious community? Think about other fears you may have about people different from you. How can you bridge the chasm between you and “othered” people and begin to communicate? Perhaps you could start by inviting them over to share a bowl of your award-winning potato salad.

Billie Wade, guest blog writer for Mind & Spirit Counseling Center

Billie Wade is a gregarious introvert whose primary interests are writing, lifelong learning, personal development, and how we all are affected by life’s vagaries.

Issues facing Black people, women, the LGBTQ community, and aging adults are of particular concern to her. She enjoys open-hearted dialogue with diverse people. The opinions expressed here are her own.

Billie’s Blog: Let’s Talk About Mental Health

Billie Wade on May 9, 2025

Mind and Spirit Counseling Center hosted the 27th Annual Women Helping Women luncheon on Friday, May 2, at Prairie Meadows. Nearly 600 attendees were treated to a delicious lunch while honoring community leader Mary Gottschalk. Women Helping Women began in 1999 with a mission to support women and girls who lack financial resources to access mental health services. The first event was held in the Kelley Conference Room, Methodist Conference Center on Thursday, March 18, 1999. One hundred women attended. Since then, the initiative has raised over $2.5M.

This year’s theme of Women Helping Women was “The Impact of Social Media on Mental Health.” While social media appears to affect youth (ages 6-17) more often, adults are not immune. An estimated 4.9B people globally use social media, with an average adult use of about 145 minutes per day. Youth users report upward of 5 hours per day. Social media’s focus is physical appearance, with filters that allow users to exaggerate their image. These filters may contribute to feelings of low self-esteem, low sense of self-worth, depression and anxiety, as users compare their screen self to their reality and the screen appearances of others.

There are ways to foster healthier use of social media. You can try setting an alarm to limit your screen time, which can be quite useful. Let others know you are limiting your screen time and how long you will be on the channel. You may also want to make appointments with yourself and include the time of day and for how long. Setting limits and drawing boundaries can seem daunting at first. Over time, you may recognize improvements in yourself and others. Another technique is to unfriend people whose “comments” cause you to see yourself negatively. You can refriend them later, if you wish. Activities which bring you enjoyment and allow for interaction with others may be helpful.

Social media is particularly enticing to youth—ages 6-17. To help children, you can work with them to find healthy alternatives and apply the techniques above to their screen time.

Mental illness is much more than social media impact. In 1949, the National Association for Mental Health, now known as Mental Health America, dubbed May as Mental Health Awareness Month. MHA expanded its focus on mind and body wellness in 2019 to include the benefits of animal companionship, spirituality, humor, work/life balance, and social connections.

MentalHealth.gov states that “Mental health includes our emotional, psychological, and social well-being.” It affects how we think, feel, and do. How we handle stress, relate to others, and make choices are all affected by our mental health. Mental health is important at every stage of life, from childhood and adolescence through adulthood. MSCC is at the forefront of providing exceptional mental health services, education, and resources to everyone seeking healing, growth, and hope. Everyone associated with the Center is acutely aware of the effects of mental illness on everyday life.

According to the National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH), mental illnesses include many conditions that vary in severity, ranging from “mild to moderate to severe.” Two broad categories used to describe these conditions are: Any Mental Illness (AMI), which encompasses all recognized mental illnesses, and Serious Mental Illness (SMI), which is a smaller and more severe and specific subset of AMI. SMI includes “major depression, schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress (PTSD), and borderline personality disorder” (Department of Veterans Affairs).

NIMH reports that “nearly one in five U. S. adults live with a mental illness (46.6 million in 2017).” The estimation translates to about 600,000 Iowans living with mental illness and 37,000 Iowans living with serious mental illness reports the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI). In Mental Health America’s 2023 The State of Mental Health in America Report, Iowa ranked 25 in terms of “prevalence of mental illness and access to mental health care.”

Mental illness has no quick-fix remedies and no cure. But many people can live productive lives with treatment—counseling and pharmaceutical—support, education, social services, and resources. Stigma, societal and internalized, is a major barrier to treatment. Other barriers include lack of financial resources, lack of information about where to get help, and lack of social supports. Social supports include but are not limited to transportation, childcare, and cultural stigma. Some people fear and mistrust mental health professionals, mood-altering drugs and addiction—even prescribed medications—and fear of losing independence. There are a myriad of other reasons people do not seek professional mental health services.

Mental health awareness means listening to others and talking to trusted people. The organizations mentioned in this post are excellent resources for learning more about mental illness. And, of course, you may contact Mind and Spirit Counseling Center, Urbandale, Iowa, 515-274-4006, where they will be happy to answer your questions and help you explore the best mental health options for you.

Billie Wade, guest blog writer for Mind & Spirit Counseling Center

Billie Wade is a gregarious introvert whose primary interests are writing, lifelong learning, personal development, and how we all are affected by life’s vagaries.

Issues facing Black people, women, the LGBTQ community, and aging adults are of particular concern to her. She enjoys open-hearted dialogue with diverse people. The opinions expressed here are her own.

Billie’s Blog: The Antiracism Book Club Explained

Billie Wade on March 17, 2025

You may have considered joining the Center’s Antiracism Book Group announced in the newsletter, but you have some questions and do not know whom to ask. May this month’s post be useful.

According to Statista, in 2020, of the 1,020 people killed by police officers, 243 were Black. These numbers included Breonna Taylor, murdered on March 13 in Louisville, Kentucky, and George Floyd, murdered on May 25 in Minneapolis, Minnesota. These headliners led Terri Mork Speirs, then the Center’s Director of Community Relations, to post a statement of solidarity with the Black Community on the Center’s homepage of the website.

Speirs also set out to form an antiracism book club within the Center, which she and I planned and co-facilitated. The intention and focus of the Group were, and remain, to learn about the relationships between Black people and white people and act when and where possible to mitigate harm. The Antiracism Learning Group debuted on Monday, July 13, 2020, with discussion of How to Be an Antiracist by Ibram X. Kendi. Since then, we have become the Antiracism Book Group and have discussed sixteen books. When Terri pursued new opportunities in the fall of 2021, I took on the role of full facilitator.

The Group is free, however, each member gets the book on their own. Books are most often available from Amazon, Barnes & Noble, Thriftbooks, and local bookstores, and public libraries, both of which I recommend and support. Although I select the books we discuss, members suggest most of our reading. The Group has explored many topics, from Black history to white privilege and much more.

I divide the books into five sections, and we meet five consecutive Mondays, 6 p.m.-7:30 p.m. Central Time on Zoom. I alternate the sessions between fiction and nonfiction books. There is a two-Monday break between each book, and we do not meet in the months of November and December.

To be added to the email list and join the group, email your name and phone number to me at the email address in the newsletter with the subject line, “Antiracism Book Group.” If you use a device other than a computer, and sign in using your phone number, I must be able to identify you. I will add you to the list. You will then receive all communications, and for security purposes, only those on the email list receive the access link. People who get the link from someone other than me are not permitted entrance. For privacy, all communications are emailed using blind carbon. Opt-out is easy too—just notify me by email and I will remove your information. Otherwise, you remain on the list even if you never attend a discussion. For a myriad of reasons, unique to everyone, some people like to follow the Group as we move through the books.

Confidentiality within the Group is essential. From the Group’s inception, we intended people to express their heart in this brave space. Our discussion is popcorn style, and everyone is encouraged to speak openly.

A highlight of the Group came on Monday, May 23, 2022. The week before, we wrapped up our discussion of These Walls Between Us, co-authored by Wendy Sandford (white) and Mary Norman (Black). “In the mid-1950s, a fifteen-year-old African American teenager named Mary White (now Mary Norman) traveled north from Virginia to work for twelve-year-old Wendy Sanford’s family as a live-in domestic for their summer vacation by a remote New England beach” (Amazon). Over the years, the two formed a lasting friendship. To the delight of the Group, Mary and Wendy joined us for a special one-hour interview and Q and A session. The women talked candidly about their relationship and the difficulties that defined how their friendship blossomed.

Black people often are asked why we need to keep alive the tough conversations about race relations. In 2024, police officers shot and killed 1,173 civilians, 248 of whom were Black. With the current efforts to erase Black history, downplay the horrors of slavery, and the continued existence of health and healthcare disparities, and educational and employment inequities, it is incumbent upon everyone to educate and empower themselves and others, so right actions can be taken. These imbalances and many more are fueled by fear and hatred, both of which are unacceptable. People are getting hurt. People are dying. People are rising. Learn all you can, then act. Become one who is rising.

Billie Wade, guest blog writer for Mind & Spirit Counseling Center

Billie Wade is a gregarious introvert whose primary interests are writing, lifelong learning, personal development, and how we all are affected by life’s vagaries.

Issues facing Black people, women, the LGBTQ community, and aging adults are of particular concern to her. She enjoys open-hearted dialogue with diverse people. The opinions expressed here are her own.

How Self-Compassion Sets Us on a Path of Freedom

Billie Wade on March 11, 2020

Many of us understand compassion—empathy, kindness, gentleness, comforting, and open-heartedness. We often show compassion and caring for others who are suffering yet hesitate when we consider it for ourselves. We may be confused about what self-compassion is, the benefits, how to apply it to our life, or have some misgivings about side effects.

Self-compassion is difficult for me. The process encourages me to view mistakes, failures, shortcomings, and imperfections through the lens of benevolence and gentleness toward myself. My usual reaction to adversity is humiliation and defeat because I believe I did not try hard enough, discounting how much time, energy, emotional investment, and whole-hearted passion I infused into the project. Thoughts and beliefs that tell me I am inadequate as a human being fill my mind. Mistakes, failures, and shortcomings glow with a blinding intensity and pile onto an already enormous heap. Depression and anxiety symptoms increase and my sense of self-worth plummets. When I say words of solace to myself, they sound abrasive and insincere. They are hard to hear in my voice. When other people offer words of compassion, they affirm they are attentive and care about me, connect with me, and give me permission to engage with and express my feelings even if their support is unspoken. Self-compassion offers me the gift of giving that same kindness, gentleness, and support to myself, as I give to others when they are hurting.

Self-compassion is not letting ourselves off the hook nor is it ignoring or discounting the situation or looking on the bright side of things. Rather, it means we acknowledge the reality of the situation and recognize all humans experience disappointments and make mistakes. It does not mean we wallow in self-pity which keeps us stuck in our pain. Instead, we free ourselves to acknowledge the full range of our emotional distress and express it safely. Self-compassion does not take away our want and need to act. Rather, it equips us with knowledge and insight that help us move forward. We look for the lesson in the disappointment, failure, or shortcoming and change what we can. Our plight becomes clear and options arise.

Self-compassion does not foster narcissistic ideas and behaviors. We do not get into the rumination loop that awfulizes our experience. Self-compassion acknowledges our vulnerability and our human propensity to make mistakes and experience the sting of misfortune. We neither elevate ourselves with words of grandiosity nor do we demean ourselves with words of judgment.

Testament to our common humanity, we are all subject to the inevitable unpredictability of life. We all have disappointments, mistakes, failures, shortcomings, and characteristics we wish we could change. Self-compassion helps us see those elements through eyes of kindness and gentleness and comforting, like draping a beloved blanket or quilt over our lap rather than punishing ourselves with judgment. With the necessary element of mindfulness, we view the reality of our circumstance without further emotional harm. Our thoughts do not take over our mind; we regulate our thoughts.

When we are unaccustomed to self-nurturing, our attempts to override ingrained beliefs may give us senses of coddling or untruth. Self-doubt may arise and tell us we are in delusion or denial. Hurtful messages about us whether they come from others or from ourselves, may make the initial practice of self-compassion awkward. Failures and conclusions of inadequacy seem too big and impossible to overcome. I counter supportive messages with words of self-doubt such as, “Yeah, right,” in a condescending tone. Old, ingrained messages die hard. Realizing the benefits of self-compassion takes practice. As we become more accustomed to the words we need for relief, we can conduct a self-compassion exercise anywhere, anytime, in a matter of seconds.

So, how do we practice self-compassion? In whatever way works for us. My practice invites me to:

  1. Recognize I am experiencing a hurtful situation.
  2. Acknowledge the pain as genuine and honor and safely express my feelings.
  3. Remember that I am human and all humans experience difficulties, setbacks, disappointments, mistakes, and shortcomings.
  4. Ask myself what I need. What words do I need to comfort me? Sometimes, I need stillness and solitude. Other times, I need the kind words I would say to a friend. Or, I may need to journal. I can say reassurances such as, “I care about you and will be here as you face this situation”; “This is frightening, but I know we can get through this.” (I use the term “we” to let my inner self know I support her.); “May I be safe, may I be well, may I be at peace.” I work to send messages of well wishes to everyone involved. While not always easy, the practice can bring relief and tranquility.
  5. In my new peaceful state, I can assess the situation and my position and work toward resolution whether that means solving the problem, coming to an understanding, gaining clarity, or extricating myself.
  6. Another tip is self-touch: gently stroke the back of your hand or forearm. The warmth of your touch can soothe you.

Self-compassion melds acknowledgment and safe expression of our pain, recognition of our common humanity, and mindfulness toward approaching our experience with kindness and tenderness. We support of ourselves with the same caring we share with others. Our suffering diminishes in frequency, intensity, and duration. Serenity, joy, and resilience enter our lives.

May you be well. May you be safe. May you be at peace.

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Billie Wade, writer

Self-Awareness: Your Key to a Conscious Life

Billie Wade on February 18, 2020

Billie Wade, writer

Self-awareness is our perception of ourselves and our relationship with the rest of the world. We are more open and intimate with some people than we are with others. We make decisions, often without thinking. The same mistakes or habits recur, sending us into a tailspin of self-recrimination. Self-awareness places us in a better position to find problems and solutions. When we improve our self-awareness, we make conscious decisions, monitor behavior, and lead a life of genuineness and integrity.

Self-awareness fascinates me. I am innately and profoundly drawn to explore human development, mine and others. My family discouraged feelings, whether happy or sad. I learned to stifle my feelings and muffle their expression. Self-defeating behaviors held my feelings in check. Over time, I lost touch with my feelings which resulted in dire consequences. Through years of journaling and counseling, I thought my self-awareness and sense of self were rather good. But each time I take a deeper look within, more evidence reveals that much remains for me to learn. I engage in beliefs and behaviors that annoy me and defy my best efforts to eradicate them. Some have been with me many years. And, so it goes with most people. We all have habits, beliefs, and idiosyncrasies we want to change or eliminate.

I identified basic feelings when I joined a Twelve-step group in my early forties. There, people talked discussed sad, angry, scared, hurt, guilty, embarrassed, ashamed. They focused on the harm done to them by others and how those experiences shaped their self-awareness. Several years later I began to look at my responsibility for the decisions I made and the ways I tried to cope with emotional distress. When I ventured into the recesses of my “dark” side, I found beliefs, feelings, attitudes, and intentions of which I had been unconscious. Now, deep introspection helps me clarify what I need and how I want to experience my existence. Insights unfold for me to examine and embrace.

The process of self-awareness is an ever-evolving essential guide to how we live, and interact with others, and respond to stressful circumstances. Gaining insight into our inner life is a process of personal growth and development—mental, emotional, spiritual, social and physical. We take an honest, nonjudgmental look at our needs, desires, successes, failures, losses, strengths, and limitations. Our characteristics and attributes reveal themselves. Self-awareness helps us answer questions such as “Why do I keep doing this?” Whole billion-dollar industries are built on weight loss and financial independence. Many diets and wealth-building strategies fail because they do not address the deeply entrenched feelings and beliefs. The answers lie in our subconscious mind.

The introspection that leads to self-awareness is not an easy or simple task. Facing ourselves demands willingness, honesty, tenacity, and a healthy dose of courage. We may be led into places we do not want to go. Self-examination may be an emotionally stressful trek through buried memories. We may have avoided parts of our life because they are painful or shameful. The journey into the unknown can be frightening. When we encounter difficult memories or feelings, self-compassion is foremost and crucial. This does not mean we make excuses for ourselves or others. Rather, we listen to ourselves without judgment and censoring even as we may feel the full brunt of the suppressed feelings. We discuss our plan with someone we trust to support our effort. That person can support you as you explore your internal landscape. Des Moines Pastoral Counseling Center clinical staff are skilled in assisting clients on their path of healing and wholeness; click here to get started. The revelations are worth the journey. We learn how we developed a shield to protect ourselves from emotional distress. Change can be difficult but cannot happen if we are unaware of the problem and how it formed.

But, how can we cultivate self-awareness? We start by asking deep reflective questions relating to who we are, what we want, and how we react to others. Several years ago, I created a list of questions to ask myself, and I have added to the list since then. “What fascinates me?” “What about life am I questioning?” “What does healthy mean to me?” My list has grown to fifty-four questions which I sometimes use as journaling prompts. You can ask these questions in your journaling, counseling, and spiritual practice. Or, you may choose to delve into an emotionally charged situation. It is common for initial questions to lead deeper, more challenging questions. In time, you learn that you will be okay, and the experience has set you on a path of transformation. Introspection is quite possibly the most powerful journey you will undertake. Solutions to problems may emerge as you discover your ability to manage circumstances that formerly baffled you.

A ritual I use for self-exploration can be adapted to your needs and comfort:

  • Approach your journey into self-awareness in small steps. What are you looking for in a particular event? What are you looking for—peace, comforting, insight, clarity, relief?
  • Get physically comfortable where you will not be interrupted or distracted;
  • Set the mood, if you like, with music, candles, or incense;
  • Read an inspiring quote or passage from a book or sacred text;
  • Make a list of questions you want to explore or, chose a question from an existing list;
  • Set a timer for 5-10 minutes, if you choose, and allow yourself to relax into the quiet;
  • Let the question sink into your subconscious;
  • Try to allow the insight or epiphany to arise without judgment or emotional engagement;
  • When you are ready, write your insights without regard to punctuation, grammar, spelling, etc.’
  • Review your writing to find the golden nuggets of wisdom that surfaced;
  • Give yourself time to let the revelation develop;
  • Connect with the person you trust;
  • Begin to take small steps to integrate the lesson or message into your life.

You can now decide how you want to move forward with your discovery. Consider how the change will impact your life for the better for you and the people important to you. Consider who can help you continue your journey of self-discovery as your self-awareness grows. Allow your newly acquired transformation to unfold gradually. It takes as long as it takes. Recently, I explored an emotionally traumatic series of events that defined my life for many years. While self-assessment is difficult, I experienced clarity and peace with what happened.

Self-awareness determines how we perceive ourselves and others and the events that inform our lives. Situations and the level of intimacy we have with others depend on our interpretation of happened or is happening. As we bravely explore our beliefs, feelings, and behaviors, we discover who we really are and ways to better manage our lives. We become our best friend.

May your journey of self-discovery lead you into truth, clarity, joy, and peace.

 

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How Surrender Can Help You Heal

Billie Wade on January 14, 2020

Life is fraught with difficult experiences and situations beyond our control. Unforeseen events may short-circuit our best efforts. We can see our letdown as failure which fosters resignation or view our circumstance with curiosity which helps us learn from the situation. Resignation is a state of disappointment that highlights our feelings of failure. Surrender is an active, conscious choice, a decision rooted in our awareness that life is an unpredictable, uncontrollable journey.

Resignation takes away our ability to see options or to act in our own best interest. Unsure what to do next, or how to tend to our broken heart, we freeze. Hopelessness and helplessness color the lens through which we view our situation. We become discouraged, frustrated, confused, resentful. Faith in ourselves and our endeavors wanes. We do not take an active role in our life; we stop caring for ourselves. Our sense of self-worth diminishes. The disappointment may be the latest in several painful experiences. Any effort seems futile, so why bother?

Surrender is a difficult topic for me. By default, intense emotional pain gives way to resignation. My modus operandi is to give my heart to my vision. I forget the need for detachment, the need to cultivate hope and faith without forming a vice grip on the outcome. When I attempt to control or predict a specific outcome, I am wrong one hundred percent of the time. “This time will be different.”

I want the experiences in my life to go well. The problem arises when my emotional investment clouds my ability to see my dream with practicality. I am filled with the energy of excitement. I give little thought to what could go wrong. When reality falls short of my vision, I fall into rumination on past experiences. I worry about the future. Deep depression and anxiety follow. Resignation creeps in. I cannot see options, new opportunities, or the lessons in the experience. I am caught up in my feelings as I wander around in darkness. I journal about my angst. I see my counselor. In recent years, each experience granted me new insight and wisdom.

We often view surrender as a negative, admission of defeat. We feel forced into an experience we do not want. Surrender does not mean giving up or giving in. Nor does it mean we allow abuse or exploitation. The gift of surrender involves recognition that we have done all we can, we cannot control the outcome. There is freedom in letting go of our need to control the situation or fix the problem. We invite the possibility of more desirable options and outcomes. We find a sense of serenity as we see a broader picture.

The path of surrender is difficult. We must go through a process of grief, courage, hope, faith, wisdom, and trust. As we surrender, we acknowledge the strengths and limitations of ourselves and our situation. The options available to us may be less than desirable, but we invite peace to enter our life. We surrender many times. Surrender varies in degree of difficulty, sometimes easier than others. Many factors may influence our ability to reach acceptance, and surrender to reality—the freshness, intensity, and gravity of the experience; previous experiences; the people involved; and, the grief process which varies with each person and each situation. Our setback may result in a far more favorable outcome than we could imagine. Sometimes, it does not.

To nudge ourselves away from the pain of disappointment toward acceptance and surrender, we approach our situation with mindfulness. We

  1. treat ourselves with compassion and gentleness;
  2. pay attention to self-talk; what we say, and how we say those words, have meaning. They are strong indicators of whether we are in despair and on our way to resignation or in acceptance and on our way to surrender.
  3. look at the reality of our circumstances, what happened or is happening with awareness rather than judgment;
  4. embrace our feelings and express them in safe ways;
  5. look for our strengths and use them to move forward;
  6. get help—others may point out options we did not see. Asking for help may come in the form of counseling (schedule an appointment with Des Moines Pastoral Counseling Center here), spiritual direction, a close friend, someone professional or experienced, or even classes. Sometimes, realizing our dream and reaching our definition of success takes time to unfold. We may have to plant a lot of seeds before our vision can blossom;
  7. know we will be okay, that we are neither controlled by nor defined by the experience;
  8. approach disappointment with curiosity, seek out the message or lesson.

The difficulties of life happen to all of us. Our approach to withstanding those difficulties contributes to our peace of mind, our sense of self, our overall outlook. Life offers opportunities in forms we do not expect. The gift of surrender invites freedom of choice. Renewed strength emerges from a sense of empowerment. Letting go of the need to control and fix sets us on the path of healing and hope as we prepare for the next development in our journey.

Much peace and joy to you.

NOTE: The information offered above is not a substitute for professional intervention for mental health, grief, medical, or legal issues. I offer you my deepest empathy. I hope for your healing.

Billie Wade, writer

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Reflection, Introspection, and Moving On

Billie Wade on December 10, 2019

The year 2020 brings us a new year and a new decade. The closing year, 2019, and the 2010 decade brought triumphs, challenges, reasons to celebrate, and experiences of emotional upheaval. We may be glad to see 2019 go, or we may wish it could last a few more months. Either way, we all have our own perspective and feelings about the inevitable passing of a year and the opening of a new one.

A tradition of greeting the new year involves writing resolutions about what we want our future to look like. Too often, resolutions fizzle out in a short period. Resolutions tend to be rigid and confining, so we beat ourselves up when we do not reach our goal or measure up to our ambition. We feel guilty for having been unsuccessful, often after repeated attempts. After all, we announced our resolutions with determination and conviction. My experience with resolutions for the new year involved looking at my life and making lofty declarations for improvement. I spent little time looking at what I really needed and wanted or ways to bring my desires to fruition.

I propose reframing resolutions as hopes and intentions. This approach calls for the thoughtfulness of reflection and the honesty of introspection.

Hope is a deep sense that our dreams, desires, and wishes might come to fruition. Hope is born of a yearning of a desired outcome, often with a spiritual basis. The end result is vivid in our mind. We have a visceral response to thinking about our goal.

Intentions require thoughtfulness born of reflection and introspection. We take a realistic view of our intention. We think about its importance. We consider our time, ability, equipment, fortitude, stick-to-itiveness, resources, and support. We see the importance of a plan. Intentions differ from resolutions in that they well up from deep within us and offer us flexibility. Intentions afford us the freedom to modify our course if necessary.

Reflection reviews where we have been and assesses the way the events of our life unfolded. Look into your heart and find the denied or neglected places, the tender places, the desperate places, the raw places. Think of balm to heal those. See my article in last month’s newsletter, “2019 Holiday Survival Guide” for ideas to soothe the jangles and set you on the path of healing. I journal daily and see my counselor regularly. We can use our reflection time to re-celebrate the joys and triumphs of 2019. We can revisit the challenges and painful experiences with fresh eyes. We may need to reach out for help. Des Moines Pastoral Counseling Center has clinicians and spiritual directors to support you. Get started here.

Introspection is a deep search within to harvest the golden nuggets of strength, courage, resilience, and wisdom.

The passing of years offers a natural way of moving on to the next season of our life. We expand our introspection to determine where we want to go from here. We appraise options and possibilities. We look for ways to enrich our lives and empower ourselves. We set intentions and develop plans to attain them. We look to the new year with expectancy and gratitude for having traversed another year of life. We may have no clear answers to our deep, passionate questions. Offer gratitude for what did and did not happen in 2019.

Moving on requires us to let go of elements in our life that no longer serve us so we can live with more joy and meaning and peace. We may need to discard no-longer-useful items in our closet. Or, we may need to cut ties with people or situations that do not support us. This is a good time to review habits and behaviors that hinder us. We look for people who can help us with guidance, feedback, support, and encouragement.

Here are some steps for realizing hope and healing in 2020:

  • Review your life in 2019 and find out what brought you joy and peace, what brought you emotional pain, what went undone. Write a list.
  • Look within to see what you want to expand, reduce, or continue and what you want to bring into your life. List them.
  • Make a list of your intentions for 2020. Take an honest look at what you need to accomplish each one.
  • Choose 1-3 intentions and develop a timeline or strategy for approaching each one; be specific and detailed; write them on a calendar.
  • Put your list where you have easy access.
  • Do one small activity related to your intentions as often as possible.
  • Create checkpoints for reviewing your progress and direction.

My intentions for 2020 include:

  • Share my sacred gifts with as many people as possible.
  • Approach all of life as a great learning opportunity, in curiosity, wonder, awe, and respect.
  • Receive life’s lessons in joy and appreciation and expand my practice of gratitude.
  • Learn to surrender in joyful anticipation and expectancy.
  • Release in joy and peace those elements of my life that cause me uncertainty and hurt.

Whether you are facing 2020 with excitement or with trepidation, may every day in the new decade offer you joy for the wonder of life, light for your visions, support for your healing journey, and strength for your challenging times. I appreciate the opportunity to share in your journey.

With Much Gratitude.
– Billie

Billie Wade, writer

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